Everyone wants to be accepted. It is what we constantly crave. We want to believe that someone will be there
for us, that someone else cares, that someone knows are name. We want to be love and belong, to be a part
of something greater. We want to aspire
to be bigger than ourselves, worthy of respect and adoration. To live life to
its full and be remembered forever.
However, blinded by hope, we pursue self-recognition and social
acceptance sacrificing youthful years of labor for short-lived pleasures. We
desperately grasp at distant object hoping to find ourselves and over time our
focus becomes distort. Long held priorities become displace that our
gratification(s) might appear in the twinkle of an eye. In the same space of time, the innocence of Life
is loss. In pursuit of profit, creativity
sparks our mind to aspire further. Here,
every pleasure imaginable is either practice or pursued. Hereto, our desire for sensory stimulation intensifies.
We further restrain mortal flesh to carnality and hostage our passions to
emotional perversity, becoming obsessive and possessive with our social conduct.
We become creatures of desire wanting to have and to hold object(s) beyond
our reach. Although at times, we all might find ourselves feeling very much
deserving of something or someone. The balance
of life is not tilt toward the wanting and needing but rather toward the greedy
and feeding. Some things will prove
irrational in attaining, and some things will take time. However, as time ticks
away our desire to have and hold for intimate contact and exchange significantly
intensifies creating emotional drama. Drama leads to stress. Stress leads to
self-doubt. Self-doubt leads to confusion. Thought of rejection triggers paralyzing physical-fear.
Avoiding the issue increases anxiety. As
time ticks away, desire to have and hold further intensifies. Here, the exercise of patience and self-control
proves fruitless. Hereto in our
minds-view, time becomes an obstacle of great contempt and frustration. For the youth, patience is equal to imprisonment. For those
desiring to live, self-control means death.
As we grow older, we begin submitting to our mortality. The prospect of death becomes a virtual aphrodisiac
for life. For the hurt, the hopeless and
brokenhearted time represents healing. Over time, we embrace our ultimate humility
– the loss of youth, and begin shedding our inhibitions with the prospect of
personal reward, in hope of social inclusion. Here, the realization of imminent death stimulates
our senses. We become more self-confident, creative and productive providers of
our selves. We begin focusing upon being solution orientated - unafraid of compromising
personal ideologies toward building better relationships. Toward finding a place - our personal
sanctuary for building whatsoever we desire; whatsoever our mortal mind will
conjure.
The negative side to this analysis remains the evidence of our personal
experiences. Where we face the constant challenges of life we tend to
acknowledge our mortal state and seek to secure refuge by identifying with
something or someone else. The
realization of our ‘mortal state’ triggers a sequence of irrational behaviors geared
toward securing shelter and provision for the purpose of self-preservation. With a mindset upon self-awareness and social
acceptance, our desires gravitate toward civil-conformity in varying degrees. Self-pride
becomes a guilty pleasure; pretence becomes pragmatic and principles becomes irrelevant. Here in our modern “politically-correct”
society, truth becomes a liability. What matters most is compromise; the making
of a new creature - merging body mind and spirit into one living symbiotic
organism. Hereto, the dream of one world
one people and one destiny becomes reality.
The modern ideologies toward social integration are base upon irrational
expectations. The uniformity of utopic ideals proves impractical on a global
scale. The individualist revolution that
influenced social integration (as a better vehicle toward self-preservation) also
intensified the self-awareness movement. Personal identity meant freedom - power of
expressing self with impunity. Here, the balance between self and society
becomes distort. Social values loss
priority to self-worth as relationships that were tight and hot grows distant
and cold. Irrational expectations become
the realization of misguided hopes. The
balance of universal harmony begins to tilt towards anarchy.
Where there is misguidance, we tend to detach ourselves from the laws
of time. Desire to self-improve emerges,
and as time ticks away, it intensifies. Our
minds aspire towards pursuits requiring excessive resource. Misguidance teaches us to “aim for the stars”,
and naturally we do as told. After years of misguidance, we become misguided – seeking
social positions as replaceable sprocket in the universal wheel of perpetual
desire. Here, there is no fear of time.
There is no expectation of loss. As the
wheel slowly spins, we slowly conform to the system. The distortion between self and society become
complete. We begin to lose sense of our selves
desperately seeking the recognition and approval of others or face the ruthless
realization of social eviction and replacement. Another rejected soul condemned to a “lake of
fire” and tormented throughout eternity.
Do you dislike something, or someone?
Perhaps you simply dislike everything. You may be willing to forgive and reconcile
but not now. Forgiveness leaves a bitter taste in your
mouth but revenge is sweeter than honey. Here, our prospective of life is equal only to
our prospective of time wherein we view life as unlimited. Where time is in abundance we find reason to hate
hold-grudges obstruct and delay the inevitable. Feelings of social insecurity become invasive even
as the desire for social acceptance peeks with intensity. Although our mind is wire to rebel against
conformity discipline and structure, we stubbornly resist all urge to question our
intentions. Instead, we contrive to tilt
the balance of the universe desiring to create our own utopic environment. Believing
we have in our limited time gain enough worldly understanding to self-title
ourselves intelligent only proves the depth of our own ignorance. This is a dangerous illusion of life, and one
of the many realities of youth. However, in the passage of time, ice melt to
water and water evaporate to vapor. Old stone-hearts
in time were soft fleshy tissue. The
strongest lion becomes the weakest. Even
the biggest man over time again becomes a baby.
In the mind of the elderly compromise
is equal to conquest. In the hearts of the dying forgiveness is greater than
gold.
It is said, “Time heals all wounds” – that in the passage of time the
downtrodden will rise, broken hearts will mend and the oppressed shall be
liberated. Everyone can receive forgiveness
of their wrongdoing, can be recognize for any achievement accepted in and
belong to every society. However, the
key ingredient appears to be the concept of time. It is time that give significant value to
universal order. Time measures growth present prospects for change and qualifies
our temporal existence. Here, the vulnerable
and misguided reverends time as a divine entity that brings new life. Hereto, time is view as a merciless grim
reaper that leaves a path of devastation in its wake.
Where death is a realistic expectation “healing” prove just an
illusion? The mere result of skilful wordplay
employed to confuse the senses and emotions promoting good-news and eternal hope
for the hopeless. Inspirational messages
of instant transformation of the old into new and of the twice dead into life everlasting.
Although many accept death as the fruit
of life – evident by their obsessive desire to live, but the fact that mortals
are destine to die heavily influence prospective of time. In this modern-social mentality, time is
money; time ought not to be waste; time waits for no man. Here, to fall behind evokes
instant ridicule. Hereto, to be behind the
times means certain social death.
Without immortality, we can realistically expect a restrictive and deprived
existence wherein the consequence of momentary life is eternal death. However, over generations of reproductions and
influence by time our expectation aspires toward loftier goals universal
understanding and personal freedom. Our mind is fixated upon discovering the
unknown, not simply toward improving inefficiencies but also developing immunity
from the ultimate fear. Through the
denial of death the mortal seeks to “heal all wounds”, to decode the chromosomes
of youth and unlock the secrets of life. Simply put, to be gods.
Therefore, is immortality just an illusion and the end result of
hopeless intrigue? Can we realistically
expect to become super-mortal existing wherein good health is merely a consequence
of longevity? Is it logically possible to stop time? More to the point, is time
just an elaborate concept? The answer strangely
depends upon our personal mental state.
Whether knowing or not, everyone projects his or her positive and
negative attributes upon something or someone else. This is the reason why we either gravitate
toward or shy-away from something or someone. Our personal view or understanding of time dominates
our perception of life. As life progresses our view of time becomes
increasingly irrelevant. Here, recognition
of self and not time matters more. Hereto,
altruistic reflections upon content and not enclosure become priority.
As time progress and years become many we frequently reflect upon
disagreeable periods in our past with a view toward resolving outstanding
differences. Time being a limited resource our mind begins adapting to a state
of ideological tolerance desperately seeking to create pleasurable moments. The
mortal mindset here is gear towards creating personal wealth security and
comfort. These are all the physical provisions of someone engaged in self-preservation
or hoping to extend the parameter of temporal existence.
Oppose to mortal limitations the mental prospective of an immortal is
not influence nor restrained by time. Hope is not a factor thus hopelessness is
irrelevant. An innocent desire in the process of time can turn into a deadly
obsession. Here, acceptance is an
expectation. Rejection is not an option.
Hereto, broken hearts are broken less. Compassion becomes an inherent right of
the privilege. Opposing ideologies evoke instant wrath, even sanctimoniously
justifies social death.
Yet mortals endure living in a false state of hope amidst impending doom,
wherein social-values drastically decrease as hopelessness increase with each
ticking second. Day by day, growing to accept and submit to social anarchy collectively
experiencing the burden of mere mortality. Through constant reflection upon death, the
prospect of time becomes a precious commodity. Mortals become mentally fixated
upon extending life and reversing time.
Here begins the universal race toward replicating symbiotic organism without
defect immune to all known illness even death itself. Hereto begins the modern age of demagoguery splicing
DNA to alter species toward creating multiple universal societies.
However, our obsession with this illusion of immortality evokes
disturbing aspects of eternal life. Influenced
by a realization of unlimited existence fear of the mysterious and unknown
subside. There is no expectation of death thus, no expectation of danger. The
impetus for social acceptance now shifts from global integration toward
universal migration. For the emotionally insecure among us, desire for social
acceptance becomes an enduring expectation. Within their mind, a mere thought of social rejection
can conjure emotional overload and paralyzing physical fear. Callous intent comforts the mind against
feeling of inadequacy and insecurity. Over
extensive time, immortal hearts forgo emotional cleansing by detaching self
from symbiotic guilt and social amity. Adapting a militant prospective of
social acceptance focused upon excluding all but the submissive. The
lust for personal perfection grows stronger as it gather greater acceptance. Moreover,
of those that are willing to change from mortal to immortality, there is no
end.
The hope of securing immortality includes adapting this new prospective
of modern-social acceptance. Through the single-lens of ideological intolerance,
the mortal mindset gravitates toward disturbing levels. Callous and obsessive self-promotion becomes
the key to social acceptance thus become our most dominant thought and high praised
possession. The desire to love and to
accept becomes second only to our obsession to be love and to be accepted. Here, rejection is the poison fruit of Eden. A thought, a sudden glance, a misplaced word
or gesture can evoke sudden and deadly consequences. Exercising the art of perfection becomes culture.
Now, immortality is a realistic expectation. Change
from mortal into immortal after willingly undergoing great extremes securing 15
minutes of praise and devotion. With limitation
upon time we are compels to value self-recognition social acceptance and position.
Remorselessly
we repent of pride, and submit to hope in expectation of greater acceptance, seeking
out forgiveness in face of adversity and death.
It is here the mortal light shines
brighter than any star in the heavens. Hereto, mortality proves its supremacy
over immortality.
By humility and embracing death, the mortal create an atmosphere for
social unity and strength so great even the concept compel gods to succumb with
fear. The only thing that separates man
from god is the concept of time.
However, it is because of time or lack thereof that mortals desperately
desire to live love and imagine. Because
of death, each sunrise is brighter each flowers smells sweeter the air fresher
and the expectation of a better and brighter tomorrow is ever greater that the
time before.
From this balanced prospective wherein death is not the arch-enemy of
life rather it is death that brings life new meaning. We begin to appreciate that both enjoy equal
social presence in our life – the ultimate symbiotic organism wherein self life
and death simultaneous occurring functioning together toward one singular
purpose: To try the elemental make up of mortals to create a more refine
material. The inevitable conclusion
shall prove to be our ultimate reality and the journey toward self-worth and social
improvement shall continually intensify our passion for living. Because everyone will experience death, the
experience of life becomes a highly prized commodity and the subject of
fascination.
Author: C. Nathaniel Rolle
Executive Producer & Senior Editor
THE ROLLE REPORT
