Thursday, January 17, 2013

The De-illusion of Life



Everyone wants to be accepted. It is what we constantly crave.  We want to believe that someone will be there for us, that someone else cares, that someone knows are name.  We want to be love and belong, to be a part of something greater.  We want to aspire to be bigger than ourselves, worthy of respect and adoration. To live life to its full and be remembered forever.  

However, blinded by hope, we pursue self-recognition and social acceptance sacrificing youthful years of labor for short-lived pleasures.   We desperately grasp at distant object hoping to find ourselves and over time our focus becomes distort. Long held priorities become displace that our gratification(s) might appear in the twinkle of an eye.  In the same space of time, the innocence of Life is loss.  In pursuit of profit, creativity sparks our mind to aspire further.  Here, every pleasure imaginable is either practice or pursued.  Hereto, our desire for sensory stimulation intensifies. We further restrain mortal flesh to carnality and hostage our passions to emotional perversity, becoming obsessive and possessive with our social conduct.       

We become creatures of desire wanting to have and to hold object(s) beyond our reach. Although at times, we all might find ourselves feeling very much deserving of something or someone.  The balance of life is not tilt toward the wanting and needing but rather toward the greedy and feeding.  Some things will prove irrational in attaining, and some things will take time. However, as time ticks away our desire to have and hold for intimate contact and exchange significantly intensifies creating emotional drama. Drama leads to stress. Stress leads to self-doubt. Self-doubt leads to confusion.  Thought of rejection triggers paralyzing physical-fear.  Avoiding the issue increases anxiety. As time ticks away, desire to have and hold further intensifies.  Here, the exercise of patience and self-control proves fruitless.  Hereto in our minds-view, time becomes an obstacle of great contempt and frustration.  For the youth, patience is equal to imprisonment.   For those desiring to live, self-control means death.  

As we grow older, we begin submitting to our mortality.  The prospect of death becomes a virtual aphrodisiac for life.  For the hurt, the hopeless and brokenhearted time represents healing. Over time, we embrace our ultimate humility – the loss of youth, and begin shedding our inhibitions with the prospect of personal reward, in hope of social inclusion.  Here, the realization of imminent death stimulates our senses. We become more self-confident, creative and productive providers of our selves. We begin focusing upon being solution orientated - unafraid of compromising personal ideologies toward building better relationships.  Toward finding a place - our personal sanctuary for building whatsoever we desire; whatsoever our mortal mind will conjure.  

The negative side to this analysis remains the evidence of our personal experiences. Where we face the constant challenges of life we tend to acknowledge our mortal state and seek to secure refuge by identifying with something or someone else.  The realization of our ‘mortal state’ triggers a sequence of irrational behaviors geared toward securing shelter and provision for the purpose of self-preservation.  With a mindset upon self-awareness and social acceptance, our desires gravitate toward civil-conformity in varying degrees. Self-pride becomes a guilty pleasure; pretence becomes pragmatic and principles becomes irrelevant.  Here in our modern “politically-correct” society, truth becomes a liability. What matters most is compromise; the making of a new creature - merging body mind and spirit into one living symbiotic organism.  Hereto, the dream of one world one people and one destiny becomes reality.      

The modern ideologies toward social integration are base upon irrational expectations. The uniformity of utopic ideals proves impractical on a global scale.  The individualist revolution that influenced social integration (as a better vehicle toward self-preservation) also intensified the self-awareness movement.  Personal identity meant freedom - power of expressing self with impunity. Here, the balance between self and society becomes distort.  Social values loss priority to self-worth as relationships that were tight and hot grows distant and cold.  Irrational expectations become the realization of misguided hopes.  The balance of universal harmony begins to tilt towards anarchy.

Where there is misguidance, we tend to detach ourselves from the laws of time.  Desire to self-improve emerges, and as time ticks away, it intensifies.  Our minds aspire towards pursuits requiring excessive resource.  Misguidance teaches us to “aim for the stars”, and naturally we do as told. After years of misguidance, we become misguided – seeking social positions as replaceable sprocket in the universal wheel of perpetual desire.  Here, there is no fear of time. There is no expectation of loss.  As the wheel slowly spins, we slowly conform to the system.  The distortion between self and society become complete.  We begin to lose sense of our selves desperately seeking the recognition and approval of others or face the ruthless realization of social eviction and replacement.  Another rejected soul condemned to a “lake of fire” and tormented throughout eternity.            

Do you dislike something, or someone?  Perhaps you simply dislike everything.  You may be willing to forgive and reconcile but not now.   Forgiveness leaves a bitter taste in your mouth but revenge is sweeter than honey.  Here, our prospective of life is equal only to our prospective of time wherein we view life as unlimited.  Where time is in abundance we find reason to hate hold-grudges obstruct and delay the inevitable.  Feelings of social insecurity become invasive even as the desire for social acceptance peeks with intensity.  Although our mind is wire to rebel against conformity discipline and structure, we stubbornly resist all urge to question our intentions.  Instead, we contrive to tilt the balance of the universe desiring to create our own utopic environment. Believing we have in our limited time gain enough worldly understanding to self-title ourselves intelligent only proves the depth of our own ignorance.  This is a dangerous illusion of life, and one of the many realities of youth.   However, in the passage of time, ice melt to water and water evaporate to vapor.  Old stone-hearts in time were soft fleshy tissue.  The strongest lion becomes the weakest.  Even the biggest man over time again becomes a baby.   In the mind of the elderly compromise is equal to conquest. In the hearts of the dying forgiveness is greater than gold.  

It is said, “Time heals all wounds” – that in the passage of time the downtrodden will rise, broken hearts will mend and the oppressed shall be liberated.   Everyone can receive forgiveness of their wrongdoing, can be recognize for any achievement accepted in and belong to every society.  However, the key ingredient appears to be the concept of time.  It is time that give significant value to universal order. Time measures growth present prospects for change and qualifies our temporal existence.  Here, the vulnerable and misguided reverends time as a divine entity that brings new life.  Hereto, time is view as a merciless grim reaper that leaves a path of devastation in its wake.  

Where death is a realistic expectation “healing” prove just an illusion?  The mere result of skilful wordplay employed to confuse the senses and emotions promoting good-news and eternal hope for the hopeless.  Inspirational messages of instant transformation of the old into new and of the twice dead into life everlasting.   Although many accept death as the fruit of life – evident by their obsessive desire to live, but the fact that mortals are destine to die heavily influence prospective of time.  In this modern-social mentality, time is money; time ought not to be waste; time waits for no man. Here, to fall behind evokes instant ridicule.  Hereto, to be behind the times means certain social death.  

Without immortality, we can realistically expect a restrictive and deprived existence wherein the consequence of momentary life is eternal death.  However, over generations of reproductions and influence by time our expectation aspires toward loftier goals universal understanding and personal freedom. Our mind is fixated upon discovering the unknown, not simply toward improving inefficiencies but also developing immunity from the ultimate fear.  Through the denial of death the mortal seeks to “heal all wounds”, to decode the chromosomes of youth and unlock the secrets of life.  Simply put, to be gods.  

Therefore, is immortality just an illusion and the end result of hopeless intrigue?  Can we realistically expect to become super-mortal existing wherein good health is merely a consequence of longevity? Is it logically possible to stop time? More to the point, is time just an elaborate concept?  The answer strangely depends upon our personal mental state. 

Whether knowing or not, everyone projects his or her positive and negative attributes upon something or someone else.  This is the reason why we either gravitate toward or shy-away from something or someone.  Our personal view or understanding of time dominates our perception of life. As life progresses our view of time becomes increasingly irrelevant.  Here, recognition of self and not time matters more.  Hereto, altruistic reflections upon content and not enclosure become priority.    

As time progress and years become many we frequently reflect upon disagreeable periods in our past with a view toward resolving outstanding differences. Time being a limited resource our mind begins adapting to a state of ideological tolerance desperately seeking to create pleasurable moments. The mortal mindset here is gear towards creating personal wealth security and comfort. These are all the physical provisions of someone engaged in self-preservation or hoping to extend the parameter of temporal existence.

Oppose to mortal limitations the mental prospective of an immortal is not influence nor restrained by time.   Hope is not a factor thus hopelessness is irrelevant. An innocent desire in the process of time can turn into a deadly obsession.  Here, acceptance is an expectation.  Rejection is not an option. Hereto, broken hearts are broken less. Compassion becomes an inherent right of the privilege. Opposing ideologies evoke instant wrath, even sanctimoniously justifies social death.  

Yet mortals endure living in a false state of hope amidst impending doom, wherein social-values drastically decrease as hopelessness increase with each ticking second. Day by day, growing to accept and submit to social anarchy collectively experiencing the burden of mere mortality.  Through constant reflection upon death, the prospect of time becomes a precious commodity. Mortals become mentally fixated upon extending life and reversing time.  Here begins the universal race toward replicating symbiotic organism without defect immune to all known illness even death itself.  Hereto begins the modern age of demagoguery splicing DNA to alter species toward creating multiple universal societies.     

However, our obsession with this illusion of immortality evokes disturbing aspects of eternal life.  Influenced by a realization of unlimited existence fear of the mysterious and unknown subside. There is no expectation of death thus, no expectation of danger.   The impetus for social acceptance now shifts from global integration toward universal migration. For the emotionally insecure among us, desire for social acceptance becomes an enduring expectation.  Within their mind, a mere thought of social rejection can conjure emotional overload and paralyzing physical fear.  Callous intent comforts the mind against feeling of inadequacy and insecurity.  Over extensive time, immortal hearts forgo emotional cleansing by detaching self from symbiotic guilt and social amity. Adapting a militant prospective of social acceptance focused upon excluding all but the submissive.   The lust for personal perfection grows stronger as it gather greater acceptance. Moreover, of those that are willing to change from mortal to immortality, there is no end.   

The hope of securing immortality includes adapting this new prospective of modern-social acceptance.   Through the single-lens of ideological intolerance, the mortal mindset gravitates toward disturbing levels.  Callous and obsessive self-promotion becomes the key to social acceptance thus become our most dominant thought and high praised possession.  The desire to love and to accept becomes second only to our obsession to be love and to be accepted.  Here, rejection is the poison fruit of Eden.  A thought, a sudden glance, a misplaced word or gesture can evoke sudden and deadly consequences.    Exercising the art of perfection becomes culture.   

Now, immortality is a realistic expectation.   Change from mortal into immortal after willingly undergoing great extremes securing 15 minutes of praise and devotion.  With limitation upon time we are compels to value self-recognition social acceptance and position.   Remorselessly we repent of pride, and submit to hope in expectation of greater acceptance, seeking out forgiveness in face of adversity and death.    It is here the mortal light shines brighter than any star in the heavens. Hereto, mortality proves its supremacy over immortality.

By humility and embracing death, the mortal create an atmosphere for social unity and strength so great even the concept compel gods to succumb with fear.  The only thing that separates man from god is the concept of time.  However, it is because of time or lack thereof that mortals desperately desire to live love and imagine.  Because of death, each sunrise is brighter each flowers smells sweeter the air fresher and the expectation of a better and brighter tomorrow is ever greater that the time before.  

From this balanced prospective wherein death is not the arch-enemy of life rather it is death that brings life new meaning.  We begin to appreciate that both enjoy equal social presence in our life – the ultimate symbiotic organism wherein self life and death simultaneous occurring functioning together toward one singular purpose: To try the elemental make up of mortals to create a more refine material.  The inevitable conclusion shall prove to be our ultimate reality and the journey toward self-worth and social improvement shall continually intensify our passion for living.  Because everyone will experience death, the experience of life becomes a highly prized commodity and the subject of fascination.  


                                                                   Author:  C. Nathaniel Rolle
                                                                                    Executive Producer & Senior Editor
                                                                        THE ROLLE REPORT

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