Before May 2nd 2008 I use to enjoy an ordinary
easy-going yet disciplined lifestyle structured upon the divided three-fold
fundamentals: Eight hours dedicated in service to mankind regarding gainful
employment; eight hours dedicated in service to my God, spiritual edification
and family-time; and, eight hours dedicated towards self-gratification,
relaxation and sleep. However, after an
unscheduled appointment with destiny, certain specific aspects of my
“easy-going” lifestyle had to be adjusted to fit my present philosophy and
personality. Seemingly my whole life went into an abrupt and life-changing
spiral; as if I had haphazardly stumbled into a twilight zone – falling
endlessly into a bottomless abyss of no-return, leaving me to reluctantly
relive each day as though there were no tomorrow.
I wake up at 3:15am, rolling out of bed, stumbling through
the dark hallway toward the living room.
Strangely, it is at this point when I would either proceed toward the
kitchen – to get haft-a-glass of bottle water set at room temperature or
(depending upon the my temperance), proceed toward the front door – stepping
outside into the silent and intoxicating light of a new moon, covered beneath
the blanket of the dark yet star-filled-sky: that I might quietly stand
completely still (for prolonged periods) regenerating in its radiating glow –
contemplating, carefully analyzing every aspect of my being until dawn begin to
break. This obsessive procedure occurs
exactly the same time each morning regardless of the weather or my present
obnoxious mood. As a result, I have made slight to dramatic adjustments to my
usually unpredictable nocturnal activities; adjustment that have (for the most
part) impinged upon my predictable day-time actions.
The primary adjustment pitfall to my predictable day-time
behaviors hinge upon a tight time-schedule that only accommodate prearranged
functions, maintained upon individual appointments which disallows any
instance for spontaneous activities or
events; all nocturnal schedules are open to review, consideration or
cancelation. However, the benefits
greatly outweigh any negative consequence thereof: I am able to comfortably and
completely sleep for less than four hours within a twenty-four hours period; I
am able to completely focus upon a sequence of prioritized functions and events
between the hours of 6:30am to 6:30pm daily; and, I am able to adjust and to
readjust any schedule appointment within a given time prior notice of the
same.
Further benefits include but are not limited to: a precise analytical
process of mental state, a highly developed sense of self-awareness, a basic
compulsive desire toward organized structure, an energetic physical and mental
stamina, a natural intolerance toward abusive pharmaceuticals (i.e., legal and
illegal drugs, narcotics, nicotine, alcohol, manufactured stimulants, etc), and
an enormous lack of interest toward fairytales, erroneous assumptions, lies and
all dishonest and unnatural practices.
As time pass from that moment in 2008 to the present 2012, I
have adapted certain odd and unusual behaviors. I find myself less and less
reliant upon erratic systems to govern my thoughts and actions; instead (to a
large degree) becoming deeply committed to a highly structured and logical
system of regimenting each department of my life. Rather than making judgments
based upon irrational thoughts and unverifiable substance (i.e., emotion,
premonition, random-calculations, coincidence, magic, etc), I simply rely upon
tangible evidence and proven methodical analysis – absolute fact and not
mythological theory in establishing judgments. Hence, any practice or
practicable application of mysticism and emotions are strongly suppressed and
countered by the evidence of a logical and a pragmatic mentality.
It is therefore from a strictly academic prospective that I
would directly engage or be indirectly entertained by the practitioners of
religious theories. It is within that same frame-of-mind wherein I find
opportunity to initiate (those of limited understanding) into the absolute and
glorious light of Truth; into the practical gift of Knowledge; and, onto the
sublime pathway of wisdom. Therefore it
is written: “From rational minds proceeds rational thoughts, and from rational
thoughts proceeds rational acts and, by rational actions, all good deeds are
established.”
By the practice of sincerity – of virtuous actions and
intent: I am able to tolerate, even to withstand, the enormous irrationalities
of this world; able to steadfastly endure the negative attitudes and erroneous
perceptions of the human animal, and also able to pursue an enlighten pathway
upon which a fearful heart and an immature mind cannot traverse. I seek neither acceptance nor approval from
others, nor desire tokens of affection and emotional attachments, nor find
purpose or necessity for casual conversations and gatherings. Bluntly stated; “That which is basic is all
that is required.”
Expecting distrust even fearfulness toward my worldly
indifference, and recognizing that all are not created equal: I have made it a
minor priority to enlighten the public upon matters minute and profound,
concerning the present state and plausible expectations toward your future
wellbeing; accepting that many will find irrational reasons to maintain their present
state–of-mind (as formed by prolonged exposure to erroneous information and
developed through intense emotional conditioning). However, as I have come to
recognize: “the true nature of the human animal becomes properly developed, not
by adapting nor enduring the complexity of his or her immediate environmental
circumstance or conditioning, but rather by a strict adherence and daily
practice of sincerity – mentally, physically and emotionally.
The common use of abusive and deceptive practices, overtime,
has significantly impaired and eroded the practitioners’ mental ability to
sense and appreciate simple honesty, therefore his or her physical ability to
positively respond becomes immune to gestures of genuine sincerity and thereby
rendered ineffective. Acts of cruelty and unwarranted random and deadly
violence (now) becomes the present nom.
Cruelty becomes the prime initiative for elevation to leadership and the
prescribed punishment and deterrence toward criminality, while random acts of
violence begin cultivating within the fearful heart and immature mind of the
masses as an expected prerequisite of the creation of a nations and the
development of society therein. In this
instance: it is not necessary for me to claim superiority over the majority of
“civilization”, rather that my personal philosophy and the lifestyle which I
adhere prove evident of the same.
From May 2nd 2008, much if not all of my actions
where done according to a rational and deliberate physical and mental state, of
which no instance of any accidental occurrence can be plausibly proven. In absolute terms: Whatsoever I have done
between May 2nd 2008 and this present date [April 21st
2012] deserves absolutely no reason for any sincere expressions of apology on
my part. To this day, I have shaped my
craft according to the proven experiences of the pragmatic and gifted – those
esteemed individuals (past and present) in whom I am honored to emulate.
*Let them that are of a
rational mentality duly acknowledge and so incline toward the Truth, the whole
Truth and nothing but...*
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